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众家言说 | 舒羽:麦卡勒斯——把疯狂烧成诗

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孩子、咖啡馆、音乐、爱情,是麦卡勒斯文本的嫡系纵队。它们像一个盆景师手中把玩不辍的几块顽石、山棱,依据季节、空间和背景的变化,及个人审美的转变,进行移动、重组。试着去分析这些元素,能组合出一个怎样的麦卡勒斯呢?








麦卡勒斯:把疯狂烧成诗 

舒羽




我最喜欢的美国小说家是卡森·麦卡勒斯,假如没有其他作家跳出来反对的话。可是这位迷人的女魔头一生备受如福楼拜说的“水军”的摧残,自十五岁患上风湿症后便百病缠身,得过肋膜炎、链球菌喉炎、肺炎,做过乳腺癌切除手术,还屡遭庸医误治,第三次脑中风后瘫痪坐床,尝试过自杀,不过最终还是死于一场昏迷:延宕了四十七小时的脑溢血。多么遗憾,照片上这位狂笑不羁的麦卡勒斯小姐竟只活过区区半百,叫人怎么忍心效仿呢!如果天才非得短命,那么心宽体胖的作家该怎么办,还活不活了?


《心是孤独的猎手》《金色眼睛的镜像》《婚礼的成员》《伤心咖啡馆之歌》《没有指针的钟》,从这些书名中,多少能猜出作者哪里出了点问题。除了这五部长篇,目前能读到的中文版还有李文俊先生翻译的六个短篇。死后,她妹妹又查漏补缺似的将几个未曾发表过的短篇和随笔一起收在了《抵押出去的心》一书中。听说还写过诗,可惜未曾见到。


麦卡勒斯在一篇随笔中谈道:孤独是最大的美国式疾病。欧洲人在家庭纽带和死硬的阶级愚忠之中获得安全感,几乎完全不懂得那种精神上的孤独,这对美国人来说却是自然而然的。“没有比个体意识对自我身份认同及归属感的索求更强有力和更持久的主题了。”所以,麦卡勒斯在每一个故事中很顺手地处理着孤独与疏离的主题。


读她的东西就像看那位希腊籍意大利画家契里柯的画儿《一条街的寂静与忧郁》。表面上十分宁静,却总像会发生一些什么,充满着某种预感。她对环境的营造甚至不依赖夜晚,直接曝露在光天化日的午后。她的语言之清澈、直白,一如她所向往的爱琴海岸上的太阳。一个个顿挫、肯定的句式,将残忍日常化,像一个徒步短刀的杀手,身怀毫不矫情的深刻,越是心平气和,越心狠,越手辣。读起来简直有一种掺杂着些许墨绿色的烟灰风,虽全然区别于暴毙型的巴别尔文风,但确有一种非常迷人的落拓气质。有时神秘,有时矛盾,弥漫着一丝近乎问题少女般的疯狂气息。这是特别讲究“心理卫生”的十九世纪欧洲作家无法企及的。



心是孤独的猎手。藏身于形单影只的小说家后头,在一个寂静、闷热的小镇子里走街串巷、游手荡心时,我由衷地钦佩作者叙述的耐心。她把每一个人都当成主角来写,把文字当成最平常的日子过,把笔墨、心智均匀地分配给她吹活的每一个人。


《心是孤独的猎手》一开头的名字叫《哑巴》。小镇上飘满了有关聋哑人辛格的流言,这个沉默友好的男人因为残疾反被人们奉为了上帝。


最近的几年中,每个人都明白根本没有真正的上帝。当她想到以前她想象中的上帝的模样时,她却只能看见辛格先生,他的身上披着长长的白单子。上帝是沉默的——也许正是因为这点她才想到了上帝。



对于用双手发言的聋哑人辛格来说,任何一个微小的手势都代表了某种精确的含义。辛格沉默的时候一双手总是紧紧地插在口袋中。福楼拜在那本有趣的小书《庸见词典》中有关“手指”(Doigt)一词的说法是:上帝无处不插手。


“你是这个镇上唯一能听懂我说话的人……两天啦,我一直在脑子里和你交谈,因为我知道你明白我想说什么。”“他倾听的时候,脸部是温柔的,犹太式的,一个属于被压迫民族的人的理解力。”


人有被倾听与被理解的要求。一般人对细节争辩得太多,真理往往在途中被消解掉了。在人与人,这绝非相同的个体之间要进行双向而又无间的交流非常困难,而礼数、修养的维持又绝不会比最短的PEA爱情浓度指数更长,因此能够找到一个单向度的纵容和理解自己的对象就变得十分可喜。聋哑人过滤了所有的嘈杂,内心的天平保持着自然的稳定,一切风吹草动也不过是心灵弯曲的微笑和悲悯。辛格,一个独善其身又乐于聆听的聋哑人,在现代社会里就成了一个完美无缺的圣人,总让你觉得跟他有着同一个秘密,而你自己却不知道它是什么。


上帝死了!辛格自杀了。当得知聋哑伙伴安东尼帕罗斯死在了疯人院里,无声的辛格选择了开枪自杀。有人将小说题材指为“同性恋问题”。可全文并无一处情色爱恋之嫌,生生扣住的关键词只有一个:孤独。什么样的情感可以称之为爱情?男人,女人?欢愉的爱情,在四处寻求释放的孤独心灵面前,又算得了什么?






如果你认为十七岁就参加了文学创作班的麦卡勒斯,只是一个单纯执着于心灵倾诉的文学女青年而不存一丝野心,那就错了。卡尔·马克思、法西斯、犹太人、白人副警长、着装鲜艳但表情愤怒的黑人、工人、移民、佃农等等,小说里她于静悄悄中同步处理着的,是一个既古老又棘手,甚至想起来会让人心生厌倦的主题——黑白种族之战。


南方,在美国作家眼里是一个关乎人格的形容词。田纳西·威廉姆斯很自豪地说:“卡尔精神的纯洁,她的温柔和仁慈,这些都是我们南方各州一位女士所具备的品德。在那里,‘女士’这个词不是一个称谓,而是一种品德。”要有怎样炽烈的情感、敏锐的认知、天纵的才情和革命家的雄心,才能支持小说中艰难人性的每一步旨意深明的跋涉?此时,这位孤独的猎手,南方“女士”,才二十二岁。我想起那年在台湾东海大学校园里,社会学家赵刚教授突然站定了,问我:“你运动吗?”当时我目光呆滞地回答:“我平时连走路都很少的。”对比之下,我的存在是多么幸运,又是多么苍白无力!


为麦卡勒斯赢得“二十世纪最重要的小说家”名声的,仍然是她的首部长篇《心是孤独的猎手》。好在她的《伤心咖啡馆之歌》等后续的几部作品风格更趋成熟,语言个性也更为鲜明,足以取信于挑剔的读者。而且,基于后者的杰出表现,倒不难理解《心》之所以是她处女作的原因。也许吧,很多人的第一次,不是因为紧张,而是过于人尽其才、物尽其用,把想说的想表现的都试图而且真的全都说了出来表现了出来。但她的第一次肯定没有演砸,就像在高温晕眩的教室里高考没有流鼻血昏倒一样幸运。不仅如此,她还给了读者以沉重的一击。


必须去思考,孤独是什么?


孤独是女生日记里蒙羞被好、不訾诟耻的矫情,还是那喀索斯氤氲暧昧的水仙倒影?是诗人心中恨恨欲死又取之不竭的爱意,还是煽情大师到处讲用、举国若狂的悬想?麦卡勒斯的孤独,是一幅呼之欲出的浮雕,是一个无声的聋哑人从梦中醒来,惊见于自己的双手在空中打着疯狂的手语!


让我们直接面对文本,听一听孤独的声音吧。


——有些曲子,太私人了,没法在挤满了人的房子里唱。这也很奇怪,在拥挤的房子里,一个人会如此的孤独。


——他很想把这事说给一个人听,如果他能大声地说出所有的事实,也许就能弄清令他困惑的东西。


——“不说话也可以是争吵。”鲍蒂娅说,“我感觉,就算是像这样静静地坐着,我们之间也在争论着什么。”


——你只用脑子思考。而我们呢,我们说话,是出自内心深处的感情,它们在那里已经很久了。


——有些事情你就是不想让别人知道。不是因为它们是坏事,你就是想让它们成为秘密。







小镇,是麦卡勒斯式忧伤的秘密宝盒。就像《心》书中少女米克藏在床下的那只鞋盒,里面有一把她永远无法做完的小提琴。麦卡勒斯总是喜欢让故事发生在一个接一个封闭和荒蛮的微工业小镇上,《心》、《伤》、《婚》等等,屡试不爽。这种坚执令她别有一种胆识。反过来,因为她相信爱能驱逐孤独的恐惧,让人变得坦诚而宽容,于是,心灵深处对叙述的冲动又使她获得了阔大。但倍感寂寥的是,她笔下的那些人物,不仅没能在人群中找到一份精切而确当的爱,而且最终都被淹没在了失落之后的更广漠的孤独中——


咖啡馆老板比夫成了鳏夫;梦想成为钢琴家的米克当上了一名售货员;七岁的巴伯尔小弟因为喜欢五岁的小贝贝而枪击了她;热血黑人青年兰斯死于游乐场的混战;少年哈里因爱情失身避走他乡;心智康健的安东尼帕罗斯死于疯人院;上帝辛格打爆了自己的头颅;肩挑使命的黑人医生考普兰德移居乡下养老;业余革命家杰克再度失业身世飘零……啊,我真佩服麦卡勒斯跟幸福过不去的伟大存心!


不过小说人物的命运再鲠闷悲伤,也敌不过她本人现实生活的荒谬绝望!在那半身不遂的有限生命中(享年五十岁),她与丈夫利夫斯一起尝遍了婚姻所有的可能性:结婚——离婚——复婚——再分居,然后情投意合地在巴黎的某个酒店中商议如何双双自杀。这段出生入死、错乱到战栗的孽债奇缘终以麦卡勒斯只身返回纽约,留下利夫斯一人在酒店结果性命而结束。


再来说说麦卡勒斯给我的第一次馈赠:《伤心咖啡馆之歌》。强力惊艳。磁铁般的吸引。一种被拆散了的世纪荒蛮感,像一个装在麻袋里的人被无数黑暗的拳头击打,痛感七零八落。麦卡勒斯的小说充斥着阒寂空阔的忧伤。梯突滑稽的诡谲感,有如一张张被钉在小酒馆墙壁上的水手海报。荒诞、无辜的存在感,静止在那里,永远不动。又由于她制造的荒诞感极富视觉性,使得这种静止不动在阅读中被读者自动置换成了一连串跳动的画面,像早期的电影,理所当然地给人以真实就是荒诞本身之感。这种沦肌浃髓的存在感,将人迫入死角,甚至怀疑这样的存在是没有必要的。细细体会,这种感觉正是麦卡勒斯想要交予我们的,是我们已经接受到了的一切,称之为荒诞也好,疏离也好,归根结底,是人自出生以来便已存在了的根深蒂固的个体孤独。人性本身有自己寻找出路的要求,于是身体被各种弱点牵制着,奔走趋候,惶惑无依。


当把问题放在了这样一个位置上之后,很多问题就变得失去了谈论的意义。合上书,你只想找个没人的地方,坐下来,喝一杯。


写到这儿,我想到了马尔克斯的《百年孤独》。这时的麦卡勒斯,珠宝店主的女儿,已成长为一名精湛的技师,每落一锤,都能收回一记叫人警觉的振荡。
孩子、咖啡馆、音乐、爱情,是麦卡勒斯文本的嫡系纵队。它们像一个盆景师手中把玩不辍的几块顽石、山棱,依据季节、空间和背景的变化,及个人审美的转变,进行移动、重组。试着去分析这些元素,能组合出一个怎样的麦卡勒斯呢?

麦卡勒斯有执拗的未成年情结,用于抵御文明给人带来的疏离感。在《伤》、《心》、《婚》,还有短篇《神童》中,你几乎能在绝大多数的故事里找到同一个小孩。读着读着,会突然产生一种恍惚感:这个世上怎么会有那么多小孩?在《伤》中,有一段关于儿童心理的正面描写:


儿童幼小的心灵是非常细嫩的器官。冷酷的开端会把他们的心灵扭曲成奇形怪状。一颗受了伤害的儿童的心会萎缩成这样:一辈子都像核桃一样坚硬,一样布满深沟。

咖啡馆里很多人喝酒却很少人喝咖啡,为什么还叫咖啡馆不叫酒馆?全世界都一样。如果自由是一个小孩应有的权利,可以耍赖的正当理由,那么他/她为什么还渴望长大?长大,就意味着必然走向人类的文明。在成人的世界里,人们自觉地在规定的背景中起舞。社会是一个剧场。不容否认,艺术的成功与否,很大程度上取决于在怎样的剧场中演出。


麦卡勒斯的第一个梦想是钢琴家,由于她的音乐老师玛丽·塔克夫人搬家离去而不得不中止学习(塔克曾向传记作家弗吉尼亚女士表示,麦卡勒斯并非一个天生的钢琴家),她便迅速改口,其口吻十足一个自尊心受挫的小孩:我根本就不想当什么钢琴家,我只想当一名作家。


人类的自我意识,是从琢磨自己的声音开始的。这说法应该没有问题。人们通过捕捉声音,即后来的音乐,去辨认、重现甚而创造一些转瞬即逝的东西。某种意义上,音乐品位决定了一个人的艺术命运。麦卡勒斯的音乐视野并不宽阔,莫扎特、贝多芬、约翰·鲍威尔和几位音乐剧作家给了她足够的滋养。这不重要,音乐知识的多少不能决定音乐品位的高低。


麦卡勒斯敏锐、尖利的音乐修养,不仅赋予了她一种早熟与沧桑情调调和之下的独特气质,还为她的现实主义小说划上了不可言喻的灰色烟圈一般的美感:


那首前奏曲欢快多采,犹如晨室里的一面多棱镜。它具有一种孤独者不惧怕汇入整体的高尚精神。(《旅居者》)


他唯一能记起来的只有结尾处的和弦与些许不相干的乐音了;主要旋律本身已经逃离了他。(《旅居者》)


在音乐室里,那音乐好像是在死乞白赖却又笨嘴拙舌地想求得什么不该有的东西似的。(《神童》)



上帝、人与音乐。摇摆与肯定。她通过否定上帝,来表达人存在的孤独无依,反之,又为笔下的人物灌铸一个温度适宜的灵魂,告诉人们,救赎来自自身。音乐的不可触摸,一如上帝的不可见,她通过否定圣诞老人的存在否定了上帝的存在。


音乐的开头像天平一样,从一头摇晃到另一头。像散步,或者行军。像上帝在夜里神气活现地走路……音乐又来了,更重,更响。它和上帝毫无关系。在烈日下,在黑夜中,充满计划,充满感情。

世上最扰人的东西,莫过爱情。古往今来,小说家们出于善意、美好却并不朴素的愿望,成功引渡了成千上万对才子佳人,登上完美的殿堂。结果呢,养成了人们普遍对爱情好高骛远的坏习惯,深受其害的典型代表,是包法利夫人艾玛。


麦卡勒斯的爱情是写给少数人看的,因为大多数人会觉得倒胃口。《伤》中的女一号艾米利亚小姐,“她那双灰眼睛呢——一天比一天更斗鸡了,仿佛它们想靠近对方,好相互看上一眼,发泄一些苦闷,同病相怜”。男一号李蒙表哥呢?简直不忍心重提——驼子、丧家犬、比杀人越货还要低劣的骗子。爱情很美,可他们爱得很糟。最终毁掉了一切,连同那个野蛮小镇唯一文明的象征——艾米利亚小姐家的“咖啡馆”。作者在小说中做出的合理解释是这样的:


爱者也能像对别人一样把一切认得清清楚楚——可是这丝毫也不影响他的感情的发展。一个顶顶平庸的人可以成为一次沼泽毒罂粟般热烈、狂放、美丽的恋爱的对象。


世界上有爱者,也有被爱者,这是截然不同的两类人。往往,被爱者仅仅是爱者心底平静地蕴积了好久的那种爱情的触发剂。



欣赏这一路风格,说明我的秉性冷酷凶险?不会的。我也喜欢暖风熏面又触及心灵的机智与优雅,比如热情高涨、温润多情的普鲁斯特。按培根的说法,是“物质以其诗意的感性光泽对人全身心发出微笑”。如果非把普鲁斯特譬喻为最后一位骑士贵族,麦卡勒斯则是走在现代派前列的田径旗手。他脸色苍白,乘坐四轮马车;她也脸色苍白,但徒步前进。他的烦恼是旁顾左右用心找来的;她的孤寂是在否定了上帝救赎说之后,推开冷酷的现实寒流,寻找人际之间自在、平等、真实的交流。需要补充的是,她心智矫健但体质羸弱,代表的是残奥会。


封面上,麦卡勒斯斜视着天空。新剪过的刘海盖在略显稚气的额头上。她穿着白色的衬衫,深色的背心,双手挂在一根歪曲的树杆上,像一根悬置在节日里的缎带,只是照片是黑白的,看不出原来的颜色。她带着一只黑色腕表,无名指上有一枚宽边的戒指,食指与中指夹住一支快要燃尽的烟。嘴巴鼓鼓的,含一口饱满的烟。




二〇一三年五月十七日




END



原载于《世界文学》2013年第6期,责任编辑:高兴





舒羽:诗人、作家,杭州桐庐人。著有《舒羽诗集》(北京/作家出版社;台北/三艺文化出版社)、《流水》(北京/作家出版社;台北/印刻文学出版社)、《做一只充满细节的蜗牛》(杭州/浙江文艺出版社)等,作品发表于《中国国家地理》《世界文学》《南方周末》等刊物。2011年在杭州创办舒羽咖啡,2012年创办“大运河国际诗歌节”,2021年创办“富春江国际诗歌节”。





附《纽约客》一篇英语评论:


Unhappy Endings
The collected Carson McCullers









Hilton Als




November 25, 2001




We’re in the closing moments of Carson McCullers’s 1946 novel "The Member of the Wedding." The setting: a well-worn kitchen in a small Southern town during the Second World War. There’s little in the room: a chair, a stove. Everything else has been packed up—everything, that is, except the memories of the two women in the room, as they supervise the noisy comings and goings of movers. They are Berenice Sadie Brown, a middle-aged colored housekeeper, and Frankie Addams, a thirteen-year-old motherless white girl who has grown up in the house under Berenice’s charge. A year ago, McCullers writes, Frankie felt like "an unjoined person who hung around in doorways, and she was afraid." Her fears—which were largely existential; no mere adolescent quirks, these, since Frankie serves as McCullers’s stand-in—dominated her home. Then she fell in love with the romance—or her idea of the romance—between her brother and his fiancée, her "we of me," as she called them. Berenice tried to warn Frankie against the sad allure of a love that remains forever beyond one’s grasp. To illustrate her point, she talked about her late husband, Ludie, and the men she’d been drawn to since his death:




"I loved Ludie and he was the first man I loved. Therefore, I had to go and copy myself forever afterward. What I did was to marry off little pieces of Ludie whenever I come across them. It was just my misfortune they all turned out to be the wrong pieces. My intention was to repeat me and Ludie. Now don’t you see?"




"I see what you’re driving at," [Frankie] said. "But I don’t see how it is a warning applied to me.". . .




"You and that wedding. . . . That is what I am warning about. . . . You think you going to march down the center of the aisle right between your brother and the bride. You think you going to break into that wedding, and then Jesus knows what else."




Now Frankie is moving on, away from Berenice’s "preaching." In the 1952 film adaptation of "The Member of the Wedding," the director, Fred Zinnemann, draws a telling visual comparison between Berenice’s heavy black body draped in black—a Masha of the Mason-Dixon Line—and Frankie’s lithe white figure darting here and there, her speech glowing with a nearly unbearable romanticism, like a Nina, unmindful of her imminent fall. James Baldwin once said that whites cleaved to the very thing that he, as a black person, could not afford: the romance of innocence. As Ethel Waters plays Berenice, we see in her face Baldwin’s sad realization: Frankie may choose to be an outcast, but Berenice has no choice. Frankie claims to dream of belonging, but, as Berenice knows, she has little interest in fulfilling that dream. She has invested too much in her own sharply defended and defensive outsiderness. Her emotional satisfaction will come from blaming "freaks" like Berenice (her closest point of identification and thus resistance) for keeping her from weddings that she doesn’t really want to go to, anyway—since being included would interfere with the comfort she takes in being "unjoined."Today, Berenice could be read as what Toni Morrison calls the "Africanist presence"—the black female figure whose marginal status defines the privilege of others. "Africanism has become . . . both a way of talking about and a way of policing matters of class, sexual license, and repression, formations and exercises of power, and meditations on ethics and accountability," Morrison writes in her illuminating study "Playing in the Dark." But McCullers, rather than using Africanism to offset whiteness—as Melville, Twain, and others have—seems to use it as a way of identifying her own unjoined self. Can a white writer, a woman, who came to maturity in relatively secure circumstances during the Depression and the Second World War, be described as Africanist in spirit? (In some circles, this would be called having soul.) In a review of McCullers’s first novel, "The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter" (1940), Richard Wright remarked:




To me, the most impressive aspect of [this book] is the astonishing humanity that enables a white writer, for the first time in Southern fiction, to handle Negro characters with as much ease and justice as those of her own race. This cannot be accounted for stylistically or politically; it seems to stem from an attitude toward life which enables Miss McCullers to rise above the pressure of her environment and embrace white and black humanity in one sweep of apprehension and tenderness.




In fact, as far as the description of black characters goes, "The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter" is McCullers’s most imperfect work. One black male has woolly hair and lips that seem "purple against his black skin." There is the taint of a "Negro smell" in a cabin. Strange dialect and syntax separate "educated" blacks from laborers. Ultimately, these tics seem best passed over—they are the sloppy reflex of the liberal testing her boundaries, excited to be in the presence of the "exotic" but having no new language with which to describe it; she falls back on the vocabulary of Harriet Beecher Stowe and Margaret Mitchell. What Wright sensed was actually McCullers’s lack of Southernness. Unlike so many other writers from the region, she didn’t luxuriate in rhetoric or try to break down the blood knot of race and class that kept Faulkner in Yoknapatawpha County. Nor did she share Katherine Anne Porter’s skill for writing intellectual political parables. In her essay "The Flowering Dream: Notes on Writing," McCullers admitted to having little interest in history—the Southern writer’s most consistent trope. Such shortsightedness accounts for some of the very real limitations of her work. But it also accounts for her ability to understand and identify with those unmoored from their surroundings or searching for a self in the modern world. It’s impossible not to notice, while reading through the Library of America’s newly published edition of McCullers’s five novels, that almost all of her characters—from the wayward children to the deaf-mute, the alcoholic Communist, the hunchback dwarf, the pederast, and the closeted homosexual Army captain—are Africanist, in that each defines the status quo by existing outside it.




She was born Lula Carson Smith, on February 19, 1917, in Columbus, Georgia, a town where dogwood and wisteria bloomed along the avenues in early spring. Nearby were Fort Benning and the brown waters of the Chattahoochee River, which, since the early nineteenth century, had been used to power the local cotton mills and factories. McCullers’s father, Lamar Smith, was a mild-mannered watch repairman from Tuskegee, Alabama, who in 1910 had moved to Columbus in pursuit of work. There he met and married Vera Marguerite (Bebe) Waters, a small woman of Irish extraction and great ambition. Unlike their neighbors, the Smiths weren’t very interested in religion, and promoted social awareness instead—a Yankee sensibility that was at odds with the town’s conservatism. Marguerite enjoyed tweaking the townspeople with such remarks as the now famous "Oh, yes, my daughter Lula Carson"—then a teen-ager— “and I have such a good time smoking together. We do almost everything together, you know."




Neither of the couple’s two younger children—Lamar, Jr., born in 1919, and Margarita Gachet, born in 1922—was doted on in the way Lula Carson was. According to Lamar, Jr., quoted in Virginia Spencer Carr’s tenderhearted and thorough 1975 biography, "The Lonely Hunter," Lula Carson was spoon-fed a sense of her own exalted status long before she had actually achieved anything. ("I’m going to be both rich and famous," she told a young playmate.) Nevertheless, writing was not McCullers’s first love. She wrote plays and skits to amuse her parents, but her real passion was music. Between the ages of ten and seventeen, she trained to become a concert pianist, and in 1930 she began studying with Mary Tucker, a former soloist and the wife of a career officer stationed at Fort Benning. Tucker’s commitment instilled in her young protégée the discipline she would eventually put to use as a writer. In return, she grew to love Tucker and her family—McCullers’s first "we of me," which she favored over her own family simply because it was not her own. McCullers’s relationship with her mother was intense, and she feared that she would never be free as an artist until she was away from Marguerite’s prying eyes. (McCullers’s adolescent characters rarely have mothers.)




In 1932, Lula Carson took to her bed with rheumatic fever, which was misdiagnosed as pneumonia. After a few weeks of recovery, she decided that she lacked the genius and the physical stamina to undertake a concert career. Moreover, she would not be content, she concluded, to be the interpreter of someone else’s aesthetic architecture. In her 1948 essay "How I Began to Write," McCullers recalled that her first novel, "A Reed of Pan," which she wrote when she was fifteen (the manuscript has been lost), embodied her longing to get out of Columbus, to see New York, and to familiarize herself with the unfamiliar. "The details of the book were queer," she wrote. "Ticket collectors on the subway, New York front yards—but by that time it did not matter, for already I had begun another journey. That was the year of Dostoevski, Chekhov, and Tolstoy—and there were the intimations of an unsuspected region equidistant from New York. Old Russia and our Georgia rooms, the marvelous solitary region of simple stories and the inward mind." In Decision, in 1941, McCullers explained that the rigid social order portrayed by the "Russian realists" mirrored what she had observed in her own part of the world: "The Southerner and the Russian are both ’types,’ in that they have certain recognizable and national psychological traits. Hedonistic, imaginative, lazy, and emotional—there is surely a cousinly resemblance."Still, it was McCullers’s music and not the products of her "inward mind" that got her to New York in 1934. Her parents gave her the money to study at Juilliard, and with five hundred dollars pinned to her underwear she left Columbus. Shortly after she arrived in New York, however, the money was gone. Her friend Tennessee Williams told the story:




According to the legends that surround her early period in the city, she first established her residence, quite unwittingly, in a house of prostitution, . . . and had not the ghost of an idea of what illicit enterprise was going on there. One of the girls in this establishment . . . undertook to guide her about the town. . . . While she was being shown the subway route to the Juilliard School of Music, the companion and all of her tuition money, which the companion had offered to keep for her, abruptly disappeared. Carson was abandoned penniless in the subway, and some people say it took her several weeks to find her way out.




McCullers was now launched on the sort of life that is familiar to young artists struggling in a city unmoved by their dreams. During the next couple of years, she worked at a humor magazine and as a dog walker. She answered telephones and typed in a real-estate office. She lived in a series of boarding houses. She sat in phone booths to read and watch the passing throngs. And she took writing classes at New York University and Columbia, with Sylvia Chatfield Bates and with Whit Burnett, the editor of the renowned Story, a magazine devoted to emerging writers. In December, 1936, Burnett published a story by the nineteen-year-old Carson Smith.




"Wunderkind" was an elegant evocation of McCullers’s failure to become a pianist, and it detailed the enormous price the gifted child pays in order to fulfill the ambitions of adults whose own time has passed. The story’s heroine—McCullers’s first Frances—is a high-school student in Cincinnati. For several years, the center of her world has been the gemütlich studio of her Eastern European piano teacher, Mr. Bilderbach, and his wife, Anna. But now things have changed. Frances feels that she is no longer the wunderkind Bilderbach says she is. She performs badly in a recital, alongside another student, who is a truly talented violinist. She is ashamed of her defeat. But she is equally ashamed of her envy of the other student, who is beginning to attract notice. Maybe, Frances thinks, he plays better than she does because he is a Jew—the first of McCullers’s outsider characters.




Nothing is more chilling for the prodigy than the thought of her golden spotlight being turned off—or directed, instead, at the youth standing beside her. By the time Carson Smith published "Wunderkind," she had hit upon several ways to hold on to her own uniqueness, and to make the world recognize it. There was her writing, of course. And there would be, for the next thirty years or so, until her death, a multitude of infirmities and physical calamities, real and imagined, that demanded large amounts of sympathy and attention from anyone who dared to offer them. Who would be the mother to nurse her through it all? His name was James Reeves McCullers, Jr.




Reeves, as he was called, was the eldest of four children in a family from Wetumpka, Alabama. A small man, he was a dreamer attracted to big, capable women. (He called his paternal grandparents Big Mama and Little Papa.) When he was an adolescent, his father, an alcoholic, abandoned the family, and to ease the financial burden Reeves and his sister were sent to live with various relatives. As an adult, he pined for the kind of approval that children who see themselves as a burden seek in the larger world. "Querulous, sometimes vain, Reeves wanted desperately to be somebody," Carr writes in "The Lonely Hunter."




When Reeves met Carson in Columbus, in the summer of 1935, he had been in the infantry at Fort Benning for four years and had already got to know Carson’s mother. Marguerite, in her daughter’s absence, had become something of a local Elsa Maxwell, arranging informal "drop-ins," where the town’s artistically inclined came to drink punch and listen to classical recordings. She regaled the young men with tales of her daughter, who was back East pursuing a career as a writer. New York! A writer! Carson was living the life that Reeves had only dreamed of. And, when she returned home that summer, she made the mistake—at first—of believing that she was central to Reeves’s dream. "He was the best-looking man I had ever seen," McCullers wrote in an unfinished autobiography. "I knew he was a liberal, which was important, to my mind, in a backward Southern community. . . . I was eighteen years old, and this was my first love. . . . I did not realize the lost quality of Reeves until he was truly lost." Carson may have dusted off a little of that red Georgia earth when she lit out for New York, but she hadn’t entirely shaken her ties to convention. Becoming Mrs. McCullers would win her the social respectability that had so far eluded her. In Carson, Reeves believed he had found the earth beneath his feet. The couple were married two years later. Carson was twenty, Reeves twenty-four.The plan was this: Carson would finish her book, and then Reeves would quit his job as a debt collector in Charlotte, North Carolina—where they had moved after marrying—and she would support him while he wrote. Somehow, though, Carson never got around to helping Reeves realize his dream. Nor did she have any interest in their domestic situation. ("Reeves gave me moral support and wrung out the wash which was too heavy for me," she wrote.) Her thoughts were elsewhere. She was immersed in the writing of a book that she did not comprehend. "For a whole year I worked on ’The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter,’ without understanding it at all," McCullers wrote in "The Flowering Dream." She went on:




Each character was talking to a central character, but why, I didn’t know. . . . Suddenly, as I walked across a road, it occurred to me that Harry Minowitz, the character all the other characters were talking to, was a different man, a deaf mute, and immediately . . . [t]he whole focus of the novel was fixed.




The book is set in an unnamed Southern town, and each chapter is told from a different character’s perspective. There is Mick Kelly, a teen-age girl who lives in a boarding house run by her parents, where the deaf-mute, renamed John Singer, rents a room. There’s Jake Blount, a Communist alcoholic driven half mad by the local provincialism; Dr. Copeland, a black doctor who is dying of tuberculosis; and Biff Brannon, who runs the local diner and is erotically fixated on Mick. As the long, mean days of summer go by, the Depression grinds the town down, and the hopes that sustain the characters turn to dust. Mick is forced to give up her dream of becoming a concert pianist and goes to work in a department store. Dr. Copeland dies. Jake is more or less run out of town. Biff descends into sexual confusion. And John Singer commits suicide. Only after Singer dies does it occur to the others that they had never asked him anything about himself. None of them knew where he’d lived before. None of them knew that he had loved someone once—an "obese and dreamy" Greek named Spiros Antonapoulos, who had been committed to an insane asylum. Talking does not make a difference, McCullers seems to say in this book. We are all in our own cells, writing messages to the world which that world cannot read. Those messages, the stories within the story of "The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter," include some of the most beautiful writing McCullers ever produced. The simplicity and lyricism here reveal the influence of Isak Dinesen, a writer to whom McCullers returned again and again for inspiration.




"The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter," which was published in 1940, was something of a sensation. Among the book’s more compelling reviews was one written by May Sarton for the Boston Evening Transcript. "There have been candid-camera studies of American life, past and present. There have been the usual quota of sensitively recorded novels of personal experience," she wrote. "But we have waited a long time for a new writer." McCullers truly was new. In the early forties, America was at war, and still grappling with the aftereffects of the Depression. The books that sold then—Betty Smith’s 1943 "A Tree Grows in Brooklyn," for one—were about the unconquerable adolescent spirit, which is to say, America’s unconquerable Coca-Cola optimism. But McCullers’s book had no happy ending. And she was from the South, a locale that was just about as far as one could get from the glitter and irony of New York publishing circles. "You have to remember that the South was really where nobody went, I mean nobody," the writer Phoebe Pierce Vreeland recalled of that time.After the publication of "The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter," Carson and Reeves moved to New York and entered the pantheon of famous American literary marriages—Scott and Zelda Fitzgerald, Paul and Jane Bowles, Robert Lowell and Jean Stafford—that were alternately fuelled and derailed by alcohol, infidelity, rivalry, emotional and physical brutality, and mutual understanding. The twenty-three-year-old McCullers was a publicist’s dream, with a pixie haircut, men’s shirts, and a cigarette-husky voice: an androgyne not only of the spirit but of the flesh. ("I bless the Latin poet Terence, who said, ’Nothing human is alien to me,’ " she was fond of saying.) Thanks to her compulsion for blurring the line between male and female in her work and in her personal life, she enjoyed an exalted status in a milieu dominated by gay editors and writers. Championed in Harper’s Bazaar and Mademoiselle, McCullers, along with Tennessee Williams, Truman Capote, and Jane Bowles, represented a sensibility that was distinctly at odds with that of the writers published in the Partisan Review. They weren’t political, as such—they were writers who spoke not about how the quotidian could be radicalized but about their own personal radicalization. And it was while exploring her own difference that McCullers wrote one of her more shallow and difficult works, "Reflections in a Golden Eye" (1941). The novel begins as every McCullers novel begins—with a description of a town that is soon to be changed forever:




An army post in peacetime is a dull place. Things happen, but then they happen over and over again. The general plan of a fort itself adds to the monotony—the huge concrete barracks, the neat rows of officers’ homes built one precisely like the other. . . . At the same time things do occasionally happen on an army post that are not likely to re-occur. There is a fort in the South where a few years ago a murder was committed. The participants of this tragedy were: two officers, a soldier, two women, a Filipino, and a horse.




The soldier is Private Ellgee Williams, a dark, quiet man who grooms horses. The horse he pays particular attention to belongs to Leonora Penderton, whose husband, Captain Penderton, in addition to being sexually ambiguous, is a thief and a sadist. Leonora is having an affair with her next-door neighbor, whose wife is a bedridden hysteric—after her baby is stillborn, she cuts off her nipples with garden shears. All but one of McCullers’s novels have been made into films, and it’s clear why: on the surface, they have the energy of melodrama. But the subtext of "Reflections in a Golden Eye"—which garnered the bitterest reviews of McCullers’s career, not to mention the wrath of the Ku Klux Klan for its grotesque portrait of Southern whiteness—is the spiritual desolation of marriage, of keeping up appearances, of following ritual for the sake of "belonging." It’s difficult not to see in Marlon Brando’s fascinating portrayal of Penderton in the 1967 film version the sad, defeated eyes of Reeves McCullers, trapped in a sexuality he despises. Poor Reeves was the Africanist presence in McCullers’s real life—a Berenice Sadie Brown with a bigger case of the blues.Through Thomas Mann’s daughter, Erika, who was also a writer and also gay, McCullers met the Swiss writer and adventurer Annemarie Clarac-Schwarzenbach, who was to loom large in her imagination. Although it’s unlikely that McCullers had much of a physical relationship with anyone other than Reeves, Schwarzenbach had the kind of androgyny and physical fearlessness that McCullers most admired. When Schwarzenbach died in a motorcycle accident, in 1942, McCullers pursued other attachments. "Please, Katherine Anne, let me come in and talk with you—I do love you so very much," she told Katherine Anne Porter, while standing outside the older author’s door at Yaddo. Virginia Spencer Carr relates:




Miss Porter demanded that Carson leave. She shouted from within that she would not come out until Carson vacated the hall. It was 6:30 p.m., however, and time for dinner. . . . After a brief interval the elder woman cautiously opened the door and stepped out. To her astonishment, there lay Carson sprawled across the threshold. "But I had had enough," said Miss Porter. "I merely stepped over her and continued on my way to dinner."




Throughout her life, McCullers exhibited the self-punishing solipsism and cruelty of the romantic. If you didn’t love her, or if she didn’t love you, you simply didn’t exist; you were banished to the nether regions of a mind that, after the publication of "The Heart Is a Lonely Hunter," didn’t take in much of anything new. In an essay about Tennessee Williams, Gore Vidal wrote, "I could never take any of [his women friends], from Carson McCullers to Jane Bowles to Anna Magnani. . . . Carson spoke only of her work. Of its greatness. The lugubrious Southern singsong voice never stopped: ’Did ya see muh lovely play? Did ya lahk muh lovely play? Am Ah gonna win the Pew-litzuh prahzz?’ "




In 1941, at the age of twenty-four, McCullers had the first of a series of strokes that eventually left her partially paralyzed, and she filed for divorce from Reeves. Adrift, he reënlisted and was wounded in the 1944 D Day invasion. McCullers’s letters to him during this period are filled with tenderness and longing (and written, perhaps, with a view to posterity?). "Reeves, my dearest one," she wrote in early 1945, "I am still in this queer purgatory, waiting and waiting for more news of you. I haunt the hall, waiting for the postman or for a sudden telegram. At times I am seized with the feeling you are on the way home." Remarried in 1945, Reeves and McCullers quarrelled, drank, and fell in love with a variety of men and women, but in the end they were together to the death—his, a suicide, in 1953. McCullers herself died of another stroke, in 1967, at the age of fifty, having outlived virtually all of her powerful relationships. It was as if, in the process of trying to fit her mother, Reeves, Schwarzenbach, and others into the twisted shape of her own soul, she had wholly consumed them.




It was that soul—all of it—that McCullers poured into her most brilliant work, "The Ballad of the Sad Café," which was written in 1942 but not published in book form until 1951. A long short story rather than a novel—the Library of America is fudging a bit by including it in the "Complete Novels"—the work eclipses McCullers’s other efforts. It does not have the whimsy of "The Member of the Wedding," in which, one fears, McCullers was too aware of her role as the grand dame of the adolescent spirit. Nor does it have the awkward construction of her unfortunate last novel, "Clock Without Hands," which is marred by the effects of McCullers’s various illnesses and by its self-consciously rendered "issues": miscegenation, the New South versus the Old, homosexual love.




Inspired by a dwarf McCullers had seen at a bar in Brooklyn Heights, "The Ballad of the Sad Café" begins (again) with a description of a town:




The town itself is dreary. . . . [It] is lonesome, sad, and like a place that is far off and estranged from all other places in the world. . . . The largest building, in the very center of the town, is boarded up completely and leans so far to the right that it seems bound to collapse at any minute. . . . Nevertheless, on the second floor there is one window which is not boarded; sometimes in the late afternoon when the heat is at its worst a hand will slowly open the shutter and a face will look down on the town. It is a face like the terrible dim faces known in dreams—sexless and white, with two gray crossed eyes which are turned inward so sharply that they seem to be exchanging with each other one long and secret gaze of grief.




This opening has the power of music, a prelude introducing the story’s themes: a far-off place, grief, estrangement from the self, dreams, isolation. The bearer of the face with the crossed eyes is not, in fact, sexless. She is Miss Amelia, the owner of the building, which was once a café. Before she locked herself in, Miss Amelia was a strong, practical, and greedy woman, who ran a small shop and a liquor still and was wildly litigious. One evening, when she was sitting on her front porch, a man appeared, carrying a suitcase. "The man was a stranger, and it is rare that a stranger enters the town on foot at that hour. Besides, the man was a hunchback. He was scarcely more than four feet tall," McCullers writes. Claiming to be "kin" to Miss Amelia, the dwarf, who would be known as Cousin Lymon, began to cry. Then Miss Amelia did something that no one had ever seen her do before. She offered him a drink from her own hip flask, free of charge, and she invited him to stay.




That was the beginning of Miss Amelia’s love. "What sort of thing, then, was this love?" McCullers asks. She goes on, "The most outlandish people can be the stimulus for love. A man may be a doddering great-grandfather and still love only a strange girl he saw in the streets of Cheehaw one afternoon two decades past. The preacher may love a fallen woman. . . . The value and quality of any love is determined solely by the lover himself." And it is precisely the lover’s need to know the value of the person he loves that, McCullers explains, results in the beloved’s eventual betrayal: "For the lover is forever trying to strip bare his beloved." Cousin Lymon does eventually strip Miss Amelia bare. He falls in love with Marvin Macy, Miss Amelia’s brokenhearted ex-husband, and helps him to trash the café. Cousin Lymon, it seems, was just biding his time with Miss Amelia until he could feel what she felt: the excitement of trying to wrest love from an unwilling subject. He leaves her for a love as impossible as hers, and her grief-stricken eyes turn inward as if to gaze at her own soul.




Never in McCullers’s fiction would her poetic symbols be as perfectly integrated as they are here. In an essay on Isak Dinesen, McCullers wrote, "In the true tale the characters are bound in the end to get what is coming to them. . . . The tale-teller assumes the responsibility of God, and grants to his characters a moral freedom accountable only to the author himself." Accountable only to McCullers, Miss Amelia, Cousin Lymon, and Marvin Macy were aspects of herself: a suite of voices examining McCullers’s determination both to know and not to know, to cling to her romanticism while exploring its cruelty, to hurt others while taking a long and public time to destroy herself. ♦




Published in the print edition of the December 3, 2001, issue.




Hilton Als, a staff writer at The New Yorker, won the 2017 Pulitzer Prize for criticism. He, most recently, published, “My Pinup,” in November, 2022.



附《伤心咖啡馆之歌》(节选):


The Ballad of the Sad Cafe (excerpted)
Carson Mccullers



  The town itself is dreary; not much is there except the cotton mill, the two-room houses where the workers live, a few peach trees, a church with two colored windows, and a miserable main street only a hundred yards long. On Saturdays the tenants from the near-by farms come in for a day of talk and trade. Otherwise the town is lonesome, sad, and like a place that is far off and estranged from all other places in the world. The nearest train stop is Society City, and the Greyhound and White Bus Lines use the Forks Falls Road which is three miles away. The winters here are short and raw, the summers white with glare and fiery hot.




  If you walk along the main street on an August afternoon there is nothing whatsoever to do. The largest building, in the very center of the town, is boarded up completely and leans so far to the right that it seems bound to collapse at any minute. The house is very old. There is about it a curious, cracked look that is very puzzling until you suddenly realize that at one time, and long ago, the right side of the front porch had been painted, and part of the wall – but the painting was left unfinished and one portion of the house is darker and dingier than the other. The building looks completely deserted. Nevertheless, on the second floor there is one window which is not boarded; sometimes in the late afternoon when the heat is at its worst a hand will slowly open the shutter and a face will look down on the town. It is a face like the terrible dim faces known in dreams – sexless and white, with two gray crossed eyes which are turned inward so sharply that they seem to be exchanging with each other one long and secret gaze of grief. The face lingers at the window for an hour or so, then the shutters are dosed once more, and as likely as not there will not be another soul to be seen along the main street. These August afternoons – when your shift is finished there is absolutely nothing to do; you might as well walk down to the Forks Falls Road and listen to the chain gang.




  However, here in this very town there was once a café. And this old boarded-up house was unlike any other place for many miles around. There were tables with cloths and paper napkins, colored streamers from the electric fans, great gatherings on Saturday nights. The owner of the place was Miss Amelia Evans. But the person most responsible for the success and gaiety of the place was a hunchback called Cousin Lymon. One other person had a part in the story of this café – he was the former husband of Miss Amelia, a terrible character who returned to the town after a long term in the penitentiary, caused ruin, and then went on his way again. The café has long since been closed, but it is still remembered.




  The place was not always a café. Miss Amelia inherited the building from her father, and it was a store that carried mostly feed, guano, and staples such as meal and snuff. Miss Amelia was rich. In addition to the store she operated a still three miles back in the swamp, and ran out the best liquor in the county. She was a dark, tall woman with bones and muscles like a man. Her hair was cut short and brushed back from the forehead, and there was about her sunburned face a tense, haggard quality. She might have been a handsome woman if, even then, she was not slightly cross-eyed. There were those who would have courted her, but Miss Amelia cared nothing for the love of men and was a solitary person. Her marriage had been unlike any other marriage ever contracted in this county – it was a strange and dangerous marriage, lasting only for ten days, that left the whole town wondering and shocked. Except for this queer marriage, Miss Amelia had lived her life alone. Often she spent whole nights back in her shed in the swamp, dressed in overalls and gum boots, silently guarding the low fire of the still.




  With all things which could be made by the hands Miss Amelia prospered. She sold chitterlins and sausage in the town near-by. On fine autumn days, she ground sorghum, and the syrup from her vats was dark golden and delicately flavored. She built the brick privy behind her store in only two weeks and was skilled in carpentering. It was only with people that Miss Amelia was not at ease. People, unless they are nilly-willy or very sick, cannot be taken into the hands and changed overnight to something more worthwhile and profitable. So that the only use that Miss Amelia had for other people was to make money out of them. And in this she succeeded. Mortgages on crops and property, a sawmill, money in the bank – she was the richest woman for miles around. She would have been rich as a congressman if it were not for her one great failing, and that was her passion for lawsuits and the courts. She would involve herself in long and bitter litigation over just a trifle. It was said that if Miss Amelia so much as stumbled over a rock in the road she would glance around instinctively as though looking for something to sue about it. Aside from these lawsuits she lived a steady life and every day was very much like the day that had gone before. With the exception of her ten-day marriage, nothing happened to change this until the spring of the year that Miss Amelia was thirty years old.




  It was toward midnight on a soft quiet evening in April. The sky was the color of a blue swamp iris, the moon clear and bright. The crops that spring promised well and in the past weeks the mill had run a night shift. Down by the creek the square brick factory was yellow with light, and there was the faint, steady hum of the looms. It was such a night when it is good to hear from faraway, across the dark fields, the slow song of a Negro on his way to make love. Or when it is pleasant to sit quietly and pick a guitar, or simply to rest alone and think of nothing at all. The street that evening was deserted, but Miss Amelia's store was lighted and on the porch outside there were five people. One of these was Stumpy MacPhail, a foreman with a red face and dainty, purplish hands. On the top step were two boys in overalls, the Rainey twins – both of them lanky and slow, with white hair and sleepy green eyes. The other man was Henry Macy, a shy and timid person with gentle manners and nervous ways, who sat on the edge of the bottom step. Miss Amelia herself stood leaning against the side of the open door, her feet crossed in then: big swamp boots, patiently untying knots in a rope she had come across. They had not talked for a long time.




  One of the twins, who had been looking down the empty road, was the first to speak. "I see something coming," he said.




  "A calf got loose," said his brother.




  The approaching figure was still too distant to be clearly seen. The moon made dim, twisted shadows of the blossoming peach trees along the side of the road. In the air the odor of blossoms and sweet spring grass mingled with the warm, sour smell of the near-by lagoon.




  "No. It's somebody's youngun," said Stumpy MacPhail.




  Miss Amelia watched the road in silence. She had put down her rope and was fingering the straps of her overalls with her brown bony hand. She scowled, and a dark lock of hair fell down on her forehead. While they were waiting there, a dog from one of the houses down the road began a wild, hoarse howl that continued until a voice called


out and hushed him. It was not until the figure was quite close, within the range of the yellow light from the porch, that they saw dearly what had come.




  The man was a stranger, and it is rare that a stranger enters the town on foot at that hour. Besides, the man was a hunchback. He was scarcely more than four feet tall and he wore a ragged, dusty coat that reached only to his knees. His crooked little legs seemed too thin to carry the weight of his great warped chest and the hump that sat on his shoulders. He had a very large head, with deep-set blue eyes and a sharp little mouth. His face was both soft and sassy – at the moment his pale skin was yellowed by dust and there were lavendar shadows beneath his eyes. He carried a lopsided old suitcase which was tied with a rope.




  "Evening," said the hunchback, and he was out of breath.




  Miss Amelia and the men on the porch neither answered his greeting nor spoke. They only looked at him.




  "I am hunting for Miss Amelia Evans."




  Miss Amelia pushed back her hair from her forehead and raised her chin. "How come?"




  "Because I am kin to her," the hunchback said.




  The twins and Stumpy MacPhail looked up at Miss Amelia.




  "That's me," she said. "How do you mean 'kin'?"




  "Because -" the hunchback began. He looked uneasy, almost as though he was about to cry. He rested the suitcase on the bottom step, but did not take his hand from the handle. "My mother was Fanny Jesup and she come from Cheehaw. She left Cheehaw some thirty years ago when she married her first husband. I remember hearing her tell how she had a half-sister named Martha. And back in Cheehaw today they tell me that was your mother."




  Miss Amelia listened with her head turned slightly aside. She ate her Sunday dinners by herself; her place was never crowded with a flock of relatives, and she claimed kin with no one. She had had a great-aunt who owned the livery stable in Cheehaw, but that aunt was now dead. Aside from her there was only one double first cousin who lived in a town twenty miles away, but this cousin and Miss Amelia did not get on so well, and when they chanced to pass each other they spat on the side of the road. Other people had tried very hard, from time to time, to work out some kind of far-fetched connection with Miss Amelia, but with absolutely no success.




  The hunchback went into a long rigmarole, mentioning names and places that were unknown to the listeners on the porch and seemed to have nothing to do with the subject. "So Fanny and Martha Jesup were half-sisters. And I am the son of Fanny's third husband. So that would make you and I -" He bent down and began to unfasten his suitcase. His hands were like dirty sparrow daws and they were trembling. The bag was full of all manner of junk – ragged clothes and odd rubbish that looked like parts out of a sewing machine, or something just as worthless. The hunchback scrambled among these belongings and brought out an old photograph. "This is a picture of my mother and her half-sister."




  Miss Amelia did not speak. She was moving her jaw slowly from side to side, and you could tell from her face what she was thinking about. Stumpy MacPhail took the photograph and held it out toward the light. It was a picture of two pale, withered-up little children of about two and three years of age. The faces were tiny white blurs, and it might have been an old picture in anyone's album.




  Stumpy MacPhail handed it back with no comment. "Where you come from?" he asked.




  The hunchback's voice was uncertain. "I was traveling."




  Still Miss Amelia did not speak. She just stood leaning against the side of the door, and looked down at the hunchback. Henry Macy winked nervously and rubbed his hands together. Then quietly he left the bottom step and disappeared. He is a good soul, and the hunchback's situation had touched his heart. Therefore he did not want to wait and watch Miss Amelia chase this newcomer off her property and run him out of town. The hunchback stood with his bag open on the bottom step; he sniffled his nose, and his mouth quivered. Perhaps he began to feel his dismal predicament. Maybe he realized what a miserable thing it was to be a stranger in the town with a suitcase full of junk, and claiming kin with Miss Amelia. At any rate he sat down on the steps and suddenly began to cry.




  It was not a common thing to have an unknown hunchback walk to the store at midnight and then sit down and cry. Miss Amelia rubbed back her hair from her forehead and the men looked at each other uncomfortably. All around the town was very quiet.




  At last one of the twins said: "I'll be damned if he ain't a regular Morris Finestein."




  Everyone nodded and agreed, for that is an expression having a certain special meaning. But the hunchback cried louder because he could not know what they were talking about. Morris Finestein was a person who had lived in the town years before. He was only a quick, skipping little Jew who cried if you called him Christ-killer, and ate light bread and canned salmon every day. A calamity had come over him and he had moved away to Society City. But since then if a man were prissy in any way, or if a man ever wept, he was known as a Morris Finestein.




  "Well, he is afflicted," said Stumpy MacPhail. "There is some cause."




  Miss Amelia crossed the porch with two slow, gangling strides. She went down the steps and stood looking thoughtfully at the stranger. Gingerly, with one long brown forefinger, she touched the hump on his back. The hunchback still wept, but he was quieter now. The night was silent and the moon still shone with a soft, dear light – it was getting colder. Then Miss Amelia did a rare thing; she pulled out a bottle from her hip pocket and after polishing off the top with the palm of her hand she handed it to the hunchback to drink. Miss Amelia could seldom be persuaded to sell her liquor on credit, and for her to give so much as a drop away free was almost unknown.




  "Drink," she said. "It will liven your gizzard."




  The hunchback stopped crying, neatly licked the tears from around his mouth, and did as he was told. When he was finished, Miss Amelia took a slow swallow, warmed and washed her mouth with it, and spat. Then she also drank. The twins and the foreman had their own bottle they had paid for.




  "It is smooth liquor," Stumpy MacPhail said. "Miss Amelia, I have never known you to fail."




  The whisky they drank that evening (two big bottles of it) is important. Otherwise, it would be hard to account for what followed. Perhaps without it there would never have been a café. For the liquor of Miss Amelia has a special quality of its own. It is clean and sharp on the tongue, but once down a man it glows inside him for a long time afterward. And that is not all. It is known that if a message is written with lemon juice on a clean sheet of paper there will be no sign of it. But if the paper is held for a moment to the fire then the letters turn brown and the meaning becomes clear. Imagine that the whisky is the fire and that the message is that which is known only in the soul of a man – then the worth of Miss Amelia's liquor can be understood. Things that have gone unnoticed, thoughts that have been harbored far back in the dark mind, are suddenly recognized and comprehended. A spinner who has thought only of the loom, the dinner pail, the bed, and then the loom again – this spinner might drink some on a Sunday and come across a marsh lily. And in his palm he might hold this flower, examining the golden dainty cup, and in him suddenly might come a sweetness keen as pain. A weaver might look up suddenly and see for the first time the cold, weird radiance of midnight January sky, and a deep fright at his own smallness stop his heart. Such things as these, then, happen when a man has drunk Miss Amelia's liquor. He may suffer, or he may be spent with joy – but the experience has shown the truth; he has warmed his soul and seen the message hidden there.




  They drank until it was past midnight, and the moon was clouded over so that the night was cold and dark. The hunchback still sat on the bottom steps, bent over miserably with his forehead resting on his knee. Miss Amelia stood with her hands in her pockets, one foot resting on the second step of the stairs. She had been silent for a long time. Her face had the expression often seen in slightly cross-eyed persons who are thinking deeply, a look that appears to be both very wise and very crazy. At last she said: "I don't know you


r name."




  "I'm Lymon Willis," said the hunchback.




  "Well, come on in," she said. "Some supper was left in the stove and you can eat."




  Only a few times in her life had Miss Amelia invited anyone to eat with her, unless she were planning to trick them in some way, or make money out of them. So the men on the porch felt there was something wrong. Later, they said among themselves that she must have been drinking back in the swamp the better part of the afternoon. At any rate she left the porch, and Stumpy MacPhail and the twins went on off home. She bolted the front door and looked all around to see that her goods were in order. Then she went to the kitchen, which was at the back of the store. The hunchback followed her, dragging his suitcase, sniffing and wiping his nose on the sleeve of his dirty coat.




  "Sit down," said Miss Amelia. "I'll just warm up what's here."




  It was a good meal they had together on that night. Miss Amelia was rich and she did not grudge herself food. There was fried chicken (the breast of which the hunchback took on his own plate), mashed rootabeggars, collard greens, and hot, pale golden, sweet potatoes. Miss Amelia ate slowly and with the relish of a farm hand. She sat with both elbows on the table, bent over the plate, her knees spread wide apart and her feet braced on the rungs of the chair. As for the hunchback, he gulped down his supper as though he had not smelled food in months. During the meal one tear crept down his dingy cheek – but it was just a little leftover tear and meant nothing at all. The lamp on the table was well-trimmed, burning blue at the edges of the wick, and casting a cheerful light in the kitchen. When Miss Amelia had eaten her supper she wiped her plate carefully with a slice of light bread, and then poured her own clear, sweet syrup over the bread. The hunchback did likewise – except that he was more finicky and asked for a new plate. Having finished, Miss Amelia tilted back her chair, tightened her fist, and felt the hard, supple muscles of her right arm beneath the clean, blue cloth of her shirtsleeves – an unconscious habit with her, at the close of a meal. Then she took the lamp from the table and jerked her head toward the staircase as an invitation for the hunchback to follow after her.







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